leaving for Istanbul

Has been a buuusy week at parants' home. Now they are out at a visit and I am enjoying the calmess and silence of the house at the last night. with BBC on... preparing myself for the intense English usage at the course in Istanbul.


 According to the plans, after breakfast with dad, mom and brother tomorrow morning, I will take the bus to Istanbul. Feeling enthutiatism for the new journey, but also the nervous energy for success and adaptation concerns. I am also happy for doing this. Investing money for my career and personal development.

 Now, I want to talk how that 1 week passed. Living with mom hasn't been easy. I love her to death and grateful for incomparable stuff she done to me and my life. However it was depressing and annoying for me to see that she acts like she knows everything but I know little, objects me when I correct her, even at the matters concerns my personal life: like the amount of my bills, the time of my college graduation etc. I tried arguing. even in front of my cousins and aunt - which was really heartbreaking for her - I tried to express my feelings - she defended herself. Nothing seems to be working so far. I know it is hard to change people. But I have some hope. Someday we will find a way. We cannot go on like this. It is harmful for both of us.


 Happily have seen 3 old girlfriends: Çiğdem, Rüya and Sıla. Went shopping. Converted my money to Euro and Pound. It was somehow degrading to see that loads of my Turkish money only equals to little number of foreign paper money. Applied for a credit card. Not have one right at the moment. Went to my newly wed cousin's house - Hatice. We are at the same age. Went to the dentist and decided to go another dentist to renew the appearance of my teeth.

 I don't have much time and energy to do stuff. I will go to shower, do some face yoga to take off the intensity, prepare my luggage, pray and hopefully sleep well to wake up energic to hit off hard to Istanbul!