My elder brother who failed hard while studying Dentist programme (failed the whole class at 2 consecutive years. and previously, had got prepared to get into the programme for 3 years after highschool ) He even thought leaving the programme all together. It was years ago. Now, he is 31 and I've heard that he is regarded as the best dentist at the area he's working in - which is a small country with many dentists in it. It makes me proud and also gives me hope about my teaching that it will get more fulfilling and stressless.
been thinking on writin the entry, but felt so liveless, and still feeling that way.
Ate heavily...
brushed my teeth to wipe the guilt away.
Completed 1,5 month at job
and completed 4 weeks with teaching my classes,
At weekdays, I wake up at 6.30, be at job at 7.55, and my first lesson starts at 8.40.
and I feel uptight and nervous between that hours.
Told it to my office roommate Ceren, who's been working for 6 months or so, wondering if that feeling will die away when I get accustomed to the job somehow that it will feel natural and start to have more fulfilling classes.
She says "I still have that feeling."
Passed the 1,5 week being together and I don't know the names of half of my students.
Thinking about work and classes too much. Started to feel that it's no good for my psychology and doesnt make me more successful anyway. So, I need balance. short, mid, long term goals. Now, let me talk about it. Talking about it makes me feel good.
* Read Dukan and start dieting right away
* Starting to toastmasters today. (a community speech group) (short)
* Getting fulfilling classes, focusing on students, making them more active, clearer instructions(short)
* Make the success of the class at least at the medium (mid)
* Start M.A. at measurement and evaluation. (longer)
* Private English lessons (longer) to get me closer to my financial independence (long)
I will keep on trying,
