I don't know if it's because of spring coming... A feeling of mild depresssion and numbness surrounds me.
It's been three weeks since I got rid of all the dirty dishes at home I've been able to complete...
I had a deal with myself: "Everyday, just clean more dishes than you've used for that day. If you used 3 pieces of dish at a day, clean four of them. So, one day you will get rid of all of them."
Today, I did. I feel better.
I can't deny the fact that I'm not being as sociable as I used to be earlier and social life is the main source of energy and power that I get fueled. For the last couple or more weeks, my weekends mainly pass at home alone. Hakan hangs out with his friends from school and doesn't invite me as he used to do. We rather pass time at home. Our 4 girls of group has broken into pieces. 3 of us don't talk to the other one. One has just got married (I catched her bride flower by the way :D) and self indulgent and egocentric for a really long time and I don't get fun anymore with them. Though we have a good communication with school crew, we don't spend much time out of school.
Anyways, there are some news about my life:
* I've got some good grades for a couple of tests I took. The avarage of them is more than 95/100. Now, I'm apllying some universities in Ankara and İstanbul for english teaching position. My boyfriend Altun is really helpful about contacting people.
* I feel bloated and I have brand new acnes. I couldn't lose any pounds :(
* I am excited to go Altun's cousin's wedding 2 weeks later. It's going to be our first appearace in a wedding and all his family - except the divorced father - will see me. Can't wait!
What are my short - mid and long term goals:
Very critical short terms:
* Eat super clean till the wedding day / exercise the small and larger muscles.
* Study fluent English speaking, teaching and pronouncing / phonology for the interviews of the universities.
* Clean the house slow by slow
mid and long term: Doooh! just complete the emergency tasks!
