back in parents' home

Heyy over there! I had 19 hours of bus travel to my parents' home - Ankara and I have too much sleep. But would feel uncomplete ending the day without writing. The last week was nearly all about marriage and relationships! First, my neighbourhood girls - Tuba, Nazan, Selin and Tulin, and I went to a hotel for the last breakfast of the year. Tuba the only married one of us) Tuba revealed that she was with the baby - unintentionally - and surprisingly - though she was on birth control pills. She is no older than us. At her 24 or 25... Nazan is waiting for her boyfriend to get on a job this summer, Selin just left her boyfriend, Tulin seeminly in a happy relationship of a few months. And I am completely single nearly for a year. My last week at school contained so much warnings and complaints about marriage by a married 32 year old and 2 daughters' mom - music teacher Yelda. She told me that happiness in marriage was about personality and soul. She had that rebellious soul, which she thinks I have! So, I should be very cautious while deciding! Then, other married and single people involved in the conversation and the views varied from negative to positive aspects of marriage and having children. Before the day I left the city,last Thurday, Selin, Tulin, Nazan and I had vodka at Nazan's home while we listened some slow songs. And I cried really hard! Mostly thinking of my last relationship... Thinking over my broken heart, the harsh words I heard... and everything. Girls couldn't say much thing. Selin was like; "What am I supposed to do if you cry?" Then I had a deep sleep going up to my home with accompany of Tulin. Yesterday, seeing Nazan as the last person at neighbourhood, went to the city center meeting Hakan, he took my suitcases and took me to the bus. We hugged and told that we would miss each other since he will go to the army this summer. Then I had a travel of 19 hours, most was with deep thoughts. I had a tough year emotionally. I knew from the beginning that it would be hard. However, I think I stayed strong and positive. And this was the end. Feeling the unconditional love and support of my family, today I started to prospect on future. Spending a week in Ankara, spending time with family, old friends, some necessary shopping, studying English and teaching, I will go to İstanbul for the certificate I want to get. However, It is not just about a certificate. It is about taking a step to forward and above. in the name of happiness, love, beaty of self and the world, success. God bless all.