insects in my head

a moment.. getting excited and ambitious about the future of my job,
the other moment feeling the anxciety of failing at it... and relaxing myself for another moment... never ending cycle...and for the other moment thinking that teaching is not a real, cool, respected job. You'll never be something like a rocket scientist, plane engineer, surgeon... But then... Its all I have, no mater what it is, I like it and I will work through and happy with what I have... And that's the end of the cycle for now.

the thing is I love my work. I like thinking about it. I like being with students. I like books. I like to see that they learn sth from me when they do. But then... Dark thoughts take over... then light ones... After all, I know this is a process. This is getting challanged and growing. And it is ok to grow up. May it bring good results.

I'll let me to go through this process...